I originally wrote this at the end of the first week after the angel was born. It seems like it was just yesterday, but at the same time, she has grown so much... and I have grown so much that it also seems like eons ago.
So i have survived the first week more or less intact. BOY.. pressure. What i've learnt so far:
A bath is a luxury
I can do laundry every day and still have a full basket waiting to be done.
The recovery is a slow process... stitches really take their time to heal. I still can't sit down easily, and am walking like a geriatric duck.
Breast feeding is a real skill and does NOT come naturally to everybody. I started thinking I wasn't producing enough for her, but found out that it is just that she wasn't latching on properly and as such wasn't getting enough, or encouraging my boobs to produce more. We are still figuring it out. Pumping a little bit before i feed her seems to be helping so far, fingers crossed. This discovery was made after both of us were in tears at 2 this morning and I was desperately searching the internet for help.
I can stare at her for hours. Iz a real different kinda love.
I love cuddling up with her to sleep or just to lie down. She hasn't spent a night in the crib yet.
You lose all sense of shame and can walk around with your boobies and other parts hanging out in front of almost anyone. Being naked in front of my mom and hubby at the same time is strangely not weird.
Breast feeding is the best way to lose the weight. I am back to normal size, my tummy is gone. It feels a lil squooshy with the extra skin, but is basically flat already. Mikael last night said ''But honey you're slim!!'' like he forgot that i wasn't always like an elephant. hehehe.
I LOVE MY MOM!! If my mom wasn't here I would probably have gone mad, or starved to death by now. She is my saviour! Breakfast, lunch, dinner, laundry, grocery shopping, holding Zara so I can do whatever I need to (like bathe!)
You can never describe the whole experience (labour and being a mom) to somebody who hasn't gone thru it themselves. It eh have no words to describe the pain or the love.
5 minutes to myself is A LOT of free time... and it is now up :)