Friday, February 13, 2009

I am an artist too.

Isn't parenting a creative process?  It requires that you think about things that you never thought about before, in ways you never thought about them.  You try to get those feelings out, in positive, enlightening, uplifting way.  Wanting to do good by your child.  To help polish the rough stone that is your baby, and release the beautiful jewel that you know is inside.

And it is daunting.

There is the constant fear of failure.  Of doing it wrong.  Of others not liking what you  are doing, or have done.  There are critics everywhere. 

There is the confusion when it is not going how you think it should go.

but maybe thats the problem.. the thinking.

Maybe I'm not letting it flow.

And i'm restraining the creative gremlin that wants to come through me.

It is not all me.  It is greater than me.  I am the pipe line through which it will flow.  I need to be open and connected.

Art is meant to uplift humanity.  So are people.  The Angel is a people.  So am I.

I just need to keep showing up; to do my part.  Keep her safe, fed, warm, loved... and allow the muse to work on the rest.  The parts that I dont know.  It takes more than me to do this right.  I am a part of the whole.

Thanks Witchypoo and Schmutzie for this inspiration.  Check Schmutzie's post for your own inspiration.


LceeL said...

When I first got into blog365, I thought the prospect of blogging every day for a year was daunting - and I almost let that 'fear of failure' thing make me quit.

But I have three sons. Blogging is NOTHING compared to the prospect of raising a child for the next 20 years or so - and I went through that THREE times.

So I did the blogging like I did my kids - one day at a time. My boys are now three fine young men. The days of looking ahead and wondering how the heck I was going to be sure to be able to provide food, clothing and shelter to the little life I held in my arms are over. But I can look back and say "Wow. I did it."

Green Girl in Wisconsin said...

What a great way to look at it--I think there is a huge measure of pride to be had in a parenting job well done!

witchypoo said...

And thank you, darlin, for your help today!